Faith in the Fallouts

Before I write and pick apart the last few chapters of my life, I want to talk about the now. Not the healed version of me (marathon, not a sprint). Not the “after everything worked out” version. Just the season I am in right now. Learning, unlearning, and trusting God in real time.

Obviously, I cannot speak for God. And I am no Isaiah, I can’t prophesy what will happen next for me. But what I can do is infer based on what He has done and what He continues to do.

In one of my favorite worship songs, Plans, by Brandon Lake, he sings this, “If it’s not good, then He’s not finished yet.” I heard this song for the first time back in mid-October. Later that night, I heard him sing it live. I knew a lot of his music, but this song in particular I had not heard yet. When I learned this was on the set list, I, of course, needed to memorize it. I listened and felt the lyrics in a way that I had never resonated with a song before. The song in its entirety is beautifully written, but this one lyric stood out to me.

The season of life I am currently in would not be considered “good” to most. If I don’t remind myself that God is in control, it doesn’t seem good to me either. But I know He is using this for a better purpose (I mean, look at Genesis 50:20 where Joseph is talking to his brothers) and Romans 8:28 literally says, “all things work together for good.”

How reassuring is that?!

And I get it. We, as Christians, already know these things. These stories and verses are hidden in our hearts, so I am sorry to be repetitive of what you already know. But I am not here to teach you something new; I am here to reiterate again and again that you are not alone, and that you have a purpose greater than you could ever imagine.

I don’t understand why God has allowed me to go through what I am. I am not sure why He has taken certain people out of my life. I have no clue why I have been tempted time and time again during a season where it’s easiest to fall short. But I do know that God has so much in store for me. And He does for you too.

Keep pushing. You do not have to understand God’s plan to be held by them.